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November 4th, 2009
02:21 am - Dear Jack
You've gotta swim
Swim for your life
Swim for the music
That saves you
When you're not so sure you'll survive
You gotta swim
And swim when it hurts
The whole world is watching
You haven't come this far to fall off the earth
The currents will pull you away from your love
Just keep your head above
I found a tidal wave
Begging to tear down the dawn
Memories like bullets
They fired at me from a gun
A crack in the armor
I swim to brighter days
Despite the absence of sun
Choking on salt water
I'm not giving in
I swim
You gotta swim
Through nights that won't end
Swim for your families
Your lovers your sisters
And brothers and friends
Yeah, you've gotta swim
Through wars without cause
Swim for the lost politicians
Who don't see their greed as a flaw
The currents will pull us
Away from our love
Just keep your head above
I found a tidal wave
Begging to tear down the dawn
Memories like bullets
They fired at me from a gun
Cracking me open now
I swim for brighter days
Despite the absence of sun
Choking on salt water
I'm not giving in
Well I'm not giving in
I swim
You gotta swim
Swim in the dark
There's no shame in drifting
Feel the tide shifting and wait for the spark
Yeah you've gotta swim
Don't let yourself sink
Just find the horizon
I promise you it's not as far as you think
The currents will drag us away from our love
Just keep your head above
Just keep your head above
Swim
Just keep your head above
Swim, swim
Just keep your head above
Swim
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September 2nd, 2009
03:03 am - shit
piss fuck cunt cocksucker motherfucker tits fart terd twat
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August 25th, 2009
02:42 am - last day of school ever!
here we go. my very last year of being in school. weird?? YES
i dont really know what to think of it all. i was walking around campus and just couldnt believe the fact this was my last first day ever. am i ready for the real world? who knows. i have no idea what this all has in stake for me. but no matter what, im going to make the best of it all.
i really am opening up to the idea of a girlfriend. i honestly think im ready for one. im ready for some life changes, as ive been already working on many this past summer. i think ive changed a lot, and hopefully at least some of them for the better.
yes, i dont like writing in correct grammar and capitalization with these updates. i write from my heart, exactly what im feeling at the certain time.
i used to do this with my blogs, and figure ill do it once again.
this is what ive been listening to as lately..
owl city (ocean eyes)
secret secret dino club (doin' my own thing, and doin' it so well)
the dangerous summer (reach for the sun)
new taking back sunday (new again)
fun. (aim and ignite)
new set your goals (this will be the death of us all)
new third eye blind (ursa major)
new sherwood (not gunna love EP)
the maine (cant stop, wont stop)
all time low (nothing personal)
just to name a few
xo
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August 18th, 2009
02:16 am - Mr. Obama
I have all my trust in you to be honest. Thats why I waited 3 hours in the extreme cold to vote for you that 4th day of November. I did that with a very nice lady (Kelly) by my side, and it was a good time. We voted for you, and I still trust in you. Id love to see your healthplan work and I still think we have so much time to get through all the other things that were brought up during the debate. I say 8 years is what it will take to give Mr. Obama the time he needs to do what he and his cabinet needs to do.
I still support you Mr. Obama. You are my president
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August 16th, 2009
03:36 am - its been a summer
its just kind of hit me. ive been looking forward to going back to orlando so much as of lately, i kind of forgot what im leaving behind down here.
my parents are just amazing and it really is going to be sad leaving. i just cant believe its already been 2 months since i moved down. honestly seems like yesterday i was contemplating doing it, and now its all done i can look back and say it was a good move. i made some great new friends, and also have come to realization with some others. i worked a damn nice job with some great people, and luckily i am going to be able to work with them but from orlando. i really do feel blessed about that.
i just found a nordstrom bag that kassie gave me right before i left orlando for south florida, in it I still have a bag of hot fries, and a card that says "good luck in south florida! ill miss you!". that kind of stuff just makes me go crazy. how quick did this whole summer go?
i have a home down here that i am welcome in whenever i want and that is amazing. a year from now and im a college grad, this house will still be waiting for me to live in if i choose that certain course. this makes me smile
im going to miss so many good friends (matt burns, dudes in myci) and i cant wait to see them all in the future. and to be honest, im really looking forward to seeing tons of people up there. i wont names, but yea, just about all of you. some more than others. but, getting back to orlando will be a positive thing.
overall its been a hell of a run, and i will definitely take what ive learned from this trip and try to make it better. this is my LAST YEAR at UCF, and i really need to make sure i dont screw that up.
Bye momma and dad, thank you for absolutely everything you did this summer. I appreciate it so much. and to those in Orlando, I am really looking forward to seeing most of you except one who i am really really looking forward to seeing.
another year, here i come.
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August 13th, 2009
02:31 pm - i have about 72 hours left of south florida
i think "the promise" by when in rome is probably my fav song ever. i happen to like new found glory's version the best, and im sure a ton of other bands covered it as well (anberlin). just thought id throw some shinfo out there.
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August 11th, 2009
01:27 am - be calm
damn that fun. (the format) song is too damn good. i wish i had the vocal range of that guy...if i did i would not be where i am right now.
lots going in my life. this is my FINAL week in south florida, weird huh? i feel like i just moved here, and here we are at the end of the summer. school starts soon (my last year). that alone, really freaks me out. by this time next year, actually may, i will be a college graduate and will start my real life. im a little scared, but hell that is many months away. life really is some sort of roller coaster, i really cant believe i am where i am today. knowing the people i know, and just doing the things that i am doing. i would have never have guessed a year ago that i would be in this position.
i really hope that this summer i made strides that will eventually help me live a better life. im also in this band that i still believe will at somepoint get what we deserve.
wednesday i have to get 2 cavaties filled, which is the most ive ever had. no too stoked on it, but this last week here in south florida i knew from the start was going to be a shitty one. 3 doctors appointments, which usually is bad news.
im hoping that when i get to orlando, things will fall into place. . but who knows, things like that usually dont turn out the way you wanted to.
here i am, signing out. hoping for the best.
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August 2nd, 2009
02:51 am - you knew this was coming
of course.
i knew the minute i walked into the theatre this movie was going to mean something to me. 500 days of summer was a sure hit in my eyes. did anyone think i actually wouldnt like it?
we moved into the new apartment this weekend. sure was sad to see the house go, but this is a new chapter in my life and im ready to take it on. one more year of school, this year is huge for me.
and you know what? over everything that has happened as of lately, i think this simple quote from the lady at the gas station i was just at might have made the most sense.
"hows your night going miss?"
"oh, very good. im still breathing"
i mean, doesnt that rank 1st in being most important?
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July 4th, 2009
03:56 am - i happen to like this song
aes eht ni enots a ekil gniknis mi
ydob ruoy rof egdirb a ekil gninrub mi
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July 1st, 2009
12:15 am - 1.
oh, id kill to live through just a second
of the dreams that i have
i know in my head whats make believe
but in my heart something grows greater
ill suck up my pride just for now
but trust me this wont last forever
these days have seen the darkest of moments
things that i cant just admit
i promise someday ill come through in the end
just as long as i live through the present
ive taken a new outlook on life
i really think i can bring sunshine
on what has stormed on me through the past
just give me the moment ive been waiting for
youre packing your bags and leaving me here
to deal with this all on my own
i swear to god ill make this right
ill prove it all in the end
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June 28th, 2009
08:16 pm - life update
life in south florida has been pretty different so far. working monday through friday, not really partying as much and definitely trying to get back into shape. a lot of family time, and seeing some old/ making some new friends has made this whole summer transition easier.
funny getting back into the swing of things living the with parents. mowed the lawn today, i hadnt done that in years it seems. random chores and what not, basically living with roommates who care extra extra about a clean house. its been a good almost 2 weeks now.
the band hasnt done a lot of the things i was hoping for. im hoping things pick up on that end. we have a couple new tshirt designs that look pretty friggin awesome. i know we picked up a few shows in july. nothing better than playing shows haha.
extra note: i really think one of these days (post graduation) im gunna head out to burbank, california.
i am definitely looking forward to mid august to get back up to orlando. we are 100% approved for the apartment. im looking forward to the change of scene. this south florida decision definitely was for the best. a perfect break from orlando, so when i get back up there ill be focused and ready for my last year of school.
there are a few albums i cant wait to leak! updates on that later.
-zizzle
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June 26th, 2009
03:17 pm - :)
I memorized all your favorite things
Your favorite songs and how to sing
You played the strings and found my tone
I loved you so much with all my bones
Well it's been three years since I met you
Can't believe all the things that we've been through
You watched me grow up, I watched you change
Thought one day that we'd share a last name
(It's really nice to know that you think we're all out of time)
But darling don't you know we just started our lives?
(Yeah you're my baby, boy you know you spin me all around)
You drive me crazy girl, you flip my whole world upside down
(It ain't no secret boy you know I glow inside when I'm with you)
And just like sunshine girl, I hold you and I light up too
We could hide like everyday and just
Wait until the world goes and away and I
Don't care if we're all alone
I love you so much with all my bones
I try so hard to impress you
Love you way more than I know how to
Show you off and buy you things
"Sold my lambo to buy yo ring"
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June 25th, 2009
01:51 am - grateful
so very grateful for how my parents were able to raise me. we did not have much money, but i always was happy and involved in so much when i was young.
i love coming home to a mid american family's house after leaving a $2 million dollar mansion. helps me strive for goals, but realize that you have to love the things in front of you.
thanks mom and dad!
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June 17th, 2009
02:00 am - NERVES
ok, maybe this trip to south florida can be a blessing in disguise. hell, i feel like ive updated more recently than i have this entire year.
i start my new job tomorrow. nervous? YES. not that i already have enough trouble falling asleep at night, this doesnt make it easier. i have no idea what to expect. i know there is a cubicle with my name engraved on it. yes, i will be taking a picture of it and most of you will see it. i think its hilarious / kinda freaky. do i wanna work in a cubicle for the rest of my life? nah
i got an 80 gig ipod today. i feel like apple is challenging me to see if i can fill it. bet you i can. bring it steve jobs
i gotta get back to updating my ipod (trying not to get anxiety the night before starting a new job)
xShawzyCorex
Current Music: rancid?
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June 16th, 2009
02:29 am - Coral Springs
I'm here to live with you for the next 8 weeks. I hope we can get along. 2 of those weeks im supposed to be touring the east coast of the US with my band. But other than that, we will be spending much time together. I really am looking forward to catchying up with old friends that I have somewhat lost touch with during my first 2 years of college. Im looking forward to all the familiar surroundings that I love. I have high expectations.
My job starts on Wednesday. I am nervious about it, but also excited. I think finally working a legit job is what ive needed for the longest time. The money will be there, and hopefully i can spend some of it on my complex island merchandise and designs. Im really looking forward to being challended,
I am away from all my orlando friends. How much I actually miss you, is a retarded amount. im trying hard to focus on what i need to do down here before I can get all sad, I love you guys, you know exactly who you are.
Here is to an awesome summer!
-shaw dawg
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June 14th, 2009
02:05 pm - i leave tomorrow
for the summer to go down to south florida. its kind of weird, i mean i feel like i made the best overall decision...but its of course kinda hard to leave some of the things i have up here. my new friends ive made, my job ive had for almost 2 years, my house. its just all building up on me.
ill be back in august, and hopefully would have accomplished what i wanted to in coral springs. i gotta get used to basic cable instead of direct tv. ive been spoiled for the past few years watching whatever i want, whenever i want.
we had a really nice kassie/mike lewis birthday party last night. i got to say bye to some people.
ALSO, that whole creepy/amazing text message thing happened yesterday with april. we texted eachother the same quote from the movie say anything at the exact same time without previously talking to each other.
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June 11th, 2009
12:12 am - decision
south florida for the summer.
starting next tuesday night, till mid august. hopefully by the end of the summer i can look back and say
-ive toured the country
-i had a nice summer fling (optional)
-i spent quality time with my parents
-i made good money and worked hard
-im in better shape
-im totally focused to finish my last year of college
-i kept in contact with my friends up in orlando
time away can be a good thing. im optimistic
kind of weird calling akt today saying i wont be working there for the time being. ive seen that place almost every day since november of 2007.
Current Mood: ![[mood icon]](http://l-stat.livejournal.com/img/mood/classic/smile.gif) pleased
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June 6th, 2009
03:59 am - away from orlando
for the weekend. i have a lot to go over this weekend
orlando for the summer
OR
south florida til august
i need to make a decision by monday. well see
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May 25th, 2009
02:29 am - thank god
for Alternative Press Podcasts. i dont even need an internship. i'll just learn all i need to know through these things.
i still need to figure out what im doing this summer?
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May 17th, 2009
01:33 pm - oh yeaaa!
almost forgot. i put out terro ant killer things all around the house. there were like 30 ants per little terro thingy last night. now there are NONE.
success!
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